No.

No, no, no, no, no.

I am not only physically attracted to you.

No, no, no.

I do not want to let go of you.

No, no, no.

I never wanted you to leave my sight. And now it's gone and lost. What in the universe was I smoking? Clearly some new and improved invisible drug that makes you lose what you never should. Clearly something that makes you delusional from what is right in front of you. Something unethical, unfair and unwise. I can't believe what I thought was the right choice.

I was completely misunderstood from the very first sentence. I want to go back and erase the letter I sent to him less than ten days ago. It seems like it's been weeks since I wrote him off; if only I could get him back. And I've ruined everything.

Everything is falling down beneath me as my feet become glued to the ground. Therefore I fall with it, falling, falling, falling and nowhere to catch my breath. If only I could reach the ground and fall unconscious while he came to my rescue. If only I could feel pain again and know that he was coming back to be my knight in shining armor like he always was.

No, no, no, no, no.

This is outrageous. I'm so completely heartbroken. What am I going to do?